冥土の土産

A chat with pian. Talked about his absence;
To me, a person who is feeling lost and unsafe all the time,
it was a true disaster; a sudden collapse of the shelter.
Its long-lasting effects,
and the resulting trauma reverberates even now.
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Shelter By Corrinne May

What's wrong, what's getting you down?
Was it something I might have said?
You're walking around with your head to the ground
And your eyes are watery red

I know you've been through tough times
Kicked around, thrown to the ground
But you've always been the strong one
So don't tell me that nobody gets you
'cos I'm standing in your corner
Knocking at your door
You don't have to be alone

Just call my name, let me be an answer
'cos it hurts me to see you this way
I wanna ease your pain, help me understand
Let me be your shelter my friend

We share a bond, you and I, we belong
We're like coffee and morning trains
You strip my defenses, I catch your pretenses
The same blood runs through our veins

I swore I'd be your lifeline, made a vow
That I'd surround you with love at every milestone
I'll listen when nobody gets you
I'm still standing in your corner
Waiting by your door
You don't have to be alone

Just call my name, let me be an answer
'cos it hurts me to see you this way
I wanna ease your pain, help me understand
Let me be your shelter my friend

It was not too long ago
You sought to understand
You helped me mend
Remember when

So promise me you'll call my name
Let me be an answer
'cos it hurts me to see you this way
I wanna ease your pain, help me understand
Let me be your shelter my friend

Plan: If I successfully lose 10 pounds within 1 month, I will get one pair of these.
Gianna by True Religeon

自分の体力・知力が急激に衰えていく恐怖と戦う
大原の「失われた10年からの回復」プロジェクト始動中。。。
強くてかっこいい女（ばば）になりたい。
その一　筋トレ
その二　語学力アップ
その三　目を二重に整形
その四　アンチエイジング
 

                               
         


 

All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy.
All play and no work makes John a dull boy.
I am John.
Typhoon reminds me of Funabashi. Chin once said: Don't you think the wind is extremely strong here all the year around? Not until then did I realize that. I am a boring and obtuse person to some extent.
Funabashi means a lot to me. If there is any chance of going back, I think I will choose to live there again.


Well, since I feel I am getting older and dull.
Let me take a memo on the Happiest Days of my Life.
２００５年
コンサートを見る、いいや、参拝する。
片ちゃんと一緒　
京成成田駅の近くにあるホテル。コンビニ。薬局。
浅草。雷門。地下鉄への遠い道。銀座線。表参道。
みずほ銀行の前で梁さんに会った。
シュウウエムラ本店。原宿。片ちゃんとキレイな香さんと合流。
ジャニーズショップ。
山手線。東京。梁のおかげで間に合った。
新幹線。のぞみ号。新大阪へ。
隣席英語が上手な女性。
ホテルの予約をしてくれて、乗り換え場まで送ってもらった。
心斎橋駅に出た後、道がわからなくなった。
三人の若い女性にホテルまで送ってもらった。
急いで大阪城ホールへ行った。
リカさんに会った。ライブ。初めて、生で見た六人。とても綺麗だった。
自分が生き返ったってこんな感じなんだ。
グッズいっぱい買った。綺麗な夜空。
観覧車の見えるホテルの個室。
次の日、心斎橋でお買い物。片ちゃんと合流。またライブ。
立見席だった。
アンコールの時、 アリーナの後ろ彼を必死になって追い掛け回していた。
ごめん、こんなクレージな姉貴で。
近鉄難波 から 名古屋 まで。電車。名古屋。コンクリートビル。建設現場。
二階にあるジャニーズショップ。
三河三谷駅の近くにあるホテル。99円ショップ。ラーメン屋。餃子。親切なお母さん。
京都。平安神宮。西陣。修学旅行の女子高校生たち。
大阪心斎橋周辺。また潔さんに会った。プリクラ。
大丸で結婚指輪（笑）購入。
スーパー（ＡＥＯＮかな？）。大阪空港の近くにあるコンビニ。
山Ｐに超似てる可愛い店員さん。
当然、私はナンパなどするキャラではない。まあ～とりあえず、ナンパ?

時間がたつと詳しいのは覚えてないな。ただ会えて嬉しくて嬉しくて。
でも、もう二度と過去には戻れないんだ。

The SATC stud who made you forget about Aidan and Big tells Andrew Goldman a thing or two about the G-spot and French romance
Apart from Carrie, Samantha, Charlotte, and Miranda, there are a few characters that everybody knows would undoubtedly make an appearance in Sex and the City: The Movie—Profound Relationship Ambivalence would have to be there, as would Insanely Expensive Shoes, and even that old nelly Cosmopolitan would snag a cameo to remind us that it was the pink-drink heyday of 1998 when we first met Manhattan’s least-married foursome. But what about Jerry “Smith” Jerrod, Samantha’s boy toy turned loyal companion in the show’s final season? Big surprise: The hunk made the cut. And collecting the big movie check for the appearance is Jason Lewis, the 36-year-old Long Beach, California, native—and former male model—who played Jerrod, an aspiring actor who seemed to not own a shirt. A special note to Samantha-like cougars looking for a little real-world SATC action: Lewis is single and just loves him an older lady, especially one with a French accent and a riding crop.

ELLE: When we first met Smith Jerrod, your character on Sex and the City, he was waiting tables and had a devoted clientele of women who hoped to bed him. Since you too once waited tables, I wondered if this ever happened to you?
JASON LEWIS: No, but I did get picked up on an airplane to New York once. It was pretty hot. I was probably 20. I was sitting next to this woman who must have been in her early forties. We had a couple drinks. I guess she was just looking for an ­adventure, because we made plans to meet at the Limelight later. I had absolutely no idea what the Limelight even was. It was an overwhelming evening.
ELLE: Have you always liked older women?
JL: Older women rock, especially when you’re young. Young people should sleep with older people. Sex is something best done with experience.
ELLE: Just how old a woman have you been with?
JL: When I was living in France, I had a couple-month affair with a woman who was around 50. I never let her see where I lived, because I was a little scared of her. We’d meet in the city and she’d take me out to her chateau, have this great dinner, make love. In the morning, I’d ride her horse while she cooked me breakfast. Then she’d drop me off in Paris.
ELLE: Just to be clear, when you say chateau, is this just a fancy thing the French will call their shack or mobile home?
JL: No. I actually mean chateau. I was like, My God, what am I doing out here?
ELLE: On the show, you and Kim Cattrall’s character, ­Samantha, are depicted having sex in a number of configurations I’d never seen before. Were these positions familiar?
JL: No, but luckily we had one of those Xeroxed flyers of 101 sexual positions.
ELLE: There was one butt-to-butt position I couldn’t even figure out.
JL: The one where I’m treating her like a chair? Yeah, I think to actually do it you’d have to lean a lot farther forward. All we had were diagrams.
ELLE: In the show, there’s an episode in which your character is plagued by gay rumors. Which of your habits would prove that you’re irrefutably straight?
JL: This is how I’d answer that question: Who the fuck cares? It just depends on your taste and proclivities. I know gay men who dirt-bike just like I dirt-bike.
ELLE: The women of Sex and the City often deal with men they’re not entirely attracted to. Have you ever been with a woman who’s had a deal-breaker of a physical attribute?
JL: I was with a particularly malodorous girl once—beautiful but
really stinky. She had every body odor. I remember thinking, Your arms stink. Your breath stinks. Oh, God, even your hair stinks. I had no idea what to do. I remember asking a female friend, “What do I do? Slip her acidophilus when I cook for her?”
ELLE: Did you mention the odors when you broke up?
JL: No, because there were other reasons. I think if I really loved somebody, I could probably get over their stench.
ELLE: Smith Jerrod appears to be very skilled sexually. Do you think you’re good at it?
JL: I’ve read a book or two on the subject. The Kama Sutra’s definitely one of them.
ELLE: Quick: I’m giving you 45 seconds to tell me as much as you can about what you picked up in that book.
JL: Oh, man, do we really want to get into the G-spot?
ELLE: We do.
JL: Okay. Right up inside it’s a little fleshy pad, and it’s a little different on each woman. You need to stimulate the thing before you attack it. But once it’s awoken, it’s all about gentle pressure from the outside and kneading it from inside.
ELLE: You spent a great deal of time nude on SATC. What’s the longest sustained period of time you’ve been naked off set?
JL: One night when I was 17 or 18, me and my buddies went from party to party naked—we were drunk. I was a little bit of a wild child.
ELLE: How do women respond to naked men in a social situation?
JL: We all went home alone that night.

--Elle Cherchez La Femme

How I wish that I could see you wearing this on the dancing floor.

大原。２６才。
現在の目標TOEFL(iBT) 110点以上。

I am so handsome and strong that whenever I go to the beaches
The girls cannot keep their eyes off of me; in fact, I leave them speechless.
I look so cute in my little bathing suit
That the girls they all hoot and the guys they salute
And secretly wish they could be as handsome as me.

I can kiss any girl that I choose; I've proven that often.
And even if I died in a fiery wreck, girls would still kiss me in my coffin.
What I have got is a body that's hot
And what I have not? Personality. So what?
I am still handsome, and therefore I'm better than you.

I may be as dumb as a box of dirt, it doesn't matter.
Cause I'd rather be dumb and handsome and thinner than smart and ugly and fatter.
Concern for my looks is what keeps me movin'
Only skin deep? That hasn't been proven.
I am so handsome, I'll bet it goes down to my bones.

I can go out with two girls at once -- a cute and tasty "me" sandwich.
And when I have two handsome sons of my own, they'll be named Abercrombie and Fitch.
The girls love me and I can't blame them, can you?
And what can I do -- even guys like me, too
I am so handsome, I transcend societal norms.

Girls will say they'll like a guy if a sense of humor he's got.
But of course they're all lying, what they actually want is a guy who is sexy and hot.
And I'm glad to help out, 'cause I sure fit the bill,
And I will till I die, then it says in my will
That my beautiful face should be bronzed and put on display
In the Smithsonian...
Cause I am so handsome, they'll never get tired of me.